Monday, 20 March 2017

I've had lip filler again!!?

In October 2015, I had lip filler as I felt insecure and listened to people's insults and took them to heart. Now it's 2017, I don't care as much of others opinion if they say a comment about how I look. If I want to spend money on lip filler, I will. If I want to change the way I look, for me and for no one else, I will. 

Growing confidence and trying to 'love yourself' is a process that will probably go on forever. My lips will always be slightly wonky and go back to how they were before, but lip filler has gave me the confidence to smile and not worry that my gums are showing. To not feel as insecure as I used to. 

There is such a stigma around lip filler that it's bad or it looks awful, but what my advice would be to anyone and I know people say it all the time, do your research before going ahead with it. 

Lip filler can be expensive, depending on how much product you have and what brand of product you have. You will be very disappointed spending all that money and doing no research if you come out having lips that look like tyres or seriously bruised and botched up. And yes, the practitioner may have the qualifications, but do they do it well? Find out all about them!

If you do have lip filler, don't freak out the same day or a few days after if the lips swell, they get bigger when you have them done, I always think they look slightly better a bit more swollen (that sounds weird, but if you have had yours done you may feel the same.) Also, don't freak out by any bruising, that soon goes away too. 

Be careful and do your research and enjoy your new lips!

 This is the first time I hap lip filler:
 Second attempt: first picture, slighting wonky again, second photo tried to even them out.


Friday, 17 March 2017

Helping Others With Their Skin

Since posting photos of my skin journey on social media, I have had a lot messages from friends and strangers asking what I used and what I did to 'make it look so good.'

So what's the secret?  With most cases, it can be so simple, a basic skincare routine. Keeping yourself hydrated and having a good diet would work. Then again, it could be all hormonal, which makes it a little different.  Depending on how hormonal you are and how bad the acne is depends on what to do. I had hormonal acne, but I wouldn't say it was severe, I tried different skin treatments and that seemed to help a lot, what could work for me, may not work for you as everyone is different. I tried to change my lifestyle and diet but the majority of the process was having a great skincare regime. Finding products and ingredients that helped and nourished my skin instead of drying it out or making it oily, sensitive or uncomfortable changed the way my skin was, not just to look at, but underneath the skin too.

A lot of people think that if they have clear skin, they don't need to wash their face at all or a lot. I know a lot of people like that.There is also people that 'don't see the point' in an SPF50 everyday if it's not super hot outside. What they don't know is that UVA and UVB rays are everywhere. Protecting your skin is crucial, from ageing to dehydration, It's all important.

So what I'm trying to say is, If you suffer with acne or if you don't, look after your skin. If you have insecurities about your skin or if you don't, look after your skin.

Have a good skincare routine, your products don't have to be super expensive. But think about below the layer of skin you can see, that needs cleaning too.


Monday, 13 March 2017

Reflecting whilst walking

When life gets crazy and you feel stressed or got lots on your mind,what do you do? I go for a walk. I find this helps so much, walking in the woods, in the countryside or just walking to the shops, you get to think about everything. Without being on your phone connecting with most of the world, you are connecting to nature, to yourself.

I have been 'working on myself' for quite a while now, making myself a better, more confident person. Making a life for myself, learning from my mistakes, not letting people control or use me and trying to make better decisions. This is one of the hardest things I have had to. Truly focusing on  yourself is harder than you think. It's still working progress, but I really feel that taking a bit of time out of my day, walking, reflecting, even meditation, it has changed my life.

I have even tried to get my Nanna out walking, even though she moans all the way there and all the way back, it's good for both of us. We reflect on life, on what we want to do in the future, she has a good ol' gossip to me, we share what's making us happy and unhappy and it's great. Those two miles we walk to my Grandad's grave makes us closer, able to talk to each other about anything and everything, and even though she says she hates going, secretly she loves it!

Now that might sound a bit silly, but I bet you have found yourself having a little walk when stressed helps too!


Friday, 3 March 2017

Training for a marathon is HARD!!

Who knew training for a marathon would be so hard. There's the saying 'Everything you ever wanted to know about yourself, you would learn in 26.2 miles.' I haven't ran that far yet, but already I am learning about myself more, listening to my body, growing as a person. 

You have to run, obviously, but you also have to be strong, mentally and physically. Some people find it easy to  run without stopping. I get cross and put so much pressure on  myself whilst training that if I have to walk inbetween runs, I will beat myself up over it. I think I am lazy. How do people even do short runs without taking breaks? It's because it is all in the mind, and I am not mentally strong enough yet to just keep positive. 

If I new how physically and mentally demanding training for a marathon would be, I would of started training a long time ago!! It takes so much time up and exhausts your body. But it is so worth it for the cause I am running for. 

I used to exercise a lot in high school, had a very high metabolism, used to run a lot in school and loved P.E. Once I hurt my knee and also moving to my next school, people didn't seem to like sport and I didn't want to be the only one that did so went along with everyone else. Which I regret massively. Since running again, it makes me think how well I used to run, winning races and it makes me want to get fitter than ever. 

I got a letter the other day saying 'If you don't finish it, no one will judge you' but of course I will finish it. I haven't spent time, effort and money in training super hard to not complete it. This is a physical challenge, but also something that will change me and my life. 

26.2 miles is a long way to run, and all these different emotions are running through me, hoping and praying I will be able to do it. And if it is all in the mind, PMA (Positive Mental Attitude.) I WILL DO THIS!


Tuesday, 28 February 2017

My Acne Journey

Hormones, one thing that everyone has to put up with. Whether it's bad periods, mood swings, bad breakouts, they are awful.

I always had dry, sensitive skin with bad Eczema, my skin would literally flake off and crave moisture. I was in school and having the driest skin which made me feel uncomfortable. It was prom and my mum had bought me my first foundation, way too light, and just absorbed into my skin straight away so I looked a cakey, flaky mess. 

And then I had recently turned 18, I was a bit late to the party where periods were involved and had not long started the process of being a 'woman'. My periods had got so bad sometimes, I decided to go to the doctors. One of my friends had an implant herself and told me how it would really help with my period pains etc. So I tried it as she was getting on so well with it. Three months in, I was a mess, my excessively dry skin had calmed but what was this? Oil?! I started to get lumps under my skin, my hormones raging, shouting at people. crying in hysterics over nothing, and the worst, acne. Sore spots, redness, still a bit of dryness, but more oil. I had just turned eighteen, I wanted to go out partying and not look hideous. People around me used to say I wasn't clean because I had spots but I was washing my face so why was I getting spots? 

I eventually had the implant taken out, and even though I was an emotional person, the mood swings and crying stopped slightly. But every time I looked in the mirror I was ashamed. 

These were the days I was studying makeup at college and then went onto beauty therapy. Having facials seemed to help but the spots were everywhere. In 2015, I got a job in a skin clinic. I learnt so many things about the skin, about different products and their ingredients and really became to love skincare and enjoyed trying to help others around me with their skin and teaching them everything I was learning. I spent most of my wages on products hoping, praying I would get clear skin. I made myself a strict routine, and most importantly taking my makeup off properly. 

I still wasn't happy with my skin, so decided to have some skin treatments at the clinic. I had a few different chemical peels and a treatment called Derma Pen, this was to battle with the scarring after I got rid of most of the spots.  

OK, so the acne had gone, or was on it's way, Hurray! But then there was the scarring. So hard to cover up, so red and angry looking. It still looked like I was spotty when I wasn't.  I know a lot of people that haven't suffered with acne that hardly wash their face, don't moisterise or even have a skin routine and they weren't spotty. I was upset, self conscious and feeling unconfident. Comparing myself to others was the worst thing I could do, but why wasn't everyone else spotty like me? I had a boyfriend and hated taking my makeup off and showing my bare, face with redness everywhere. I was officially insecure and so unhappy. I didn't want anyone to look at me or notice me, I would pile on makeup which didn't help and I was so nervous and anxious that people would stare at my spots. I felt silly. 

Now, it's February 2017, I have never been happier with my skin. I never thought the day would come that I would walk out the house makeup free, maybe not as confident as I should be as I'm still working on that, but grateful. Looking back on my journey, It was hard, I think a lot harder as I was younger, because teenagers get insecure a lot more than adults. I feel like I have grown a lot, grown up a lot even, but learnt to appreciate and be grateful a lot more. Grateful for the journey I went through as I wouldn't be the person I am today without it. You may think I sound silly as we are only talking about skin, but for most people, it's a massive deal. I spent a lot of money trying to figure out what was good for my skin and what wasn't. What treatments, ingredients, products I could use to help. In my eyes the money was nothing, I could look at myself in the mirror and actually stand there and look at myself and I think that was the most important thing. I go on and on about self worth, self love and self care quite a lot recently, but it really is so important. Feel confident in your own skin/body. Because it'll be the only one you have been given. 

My skin will always be a work in progress, but you have to keep going! 

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